Bulimia Help

So i am finally awake from this weird horrendous night of feeling so full and undigesting. I was really worried about everything. I had blood in my urine, worrying about maybe a too high thyriod ( i don't want to swallow medicines for the rest of my life:( )

From 3.00- 5.00 i was awake, reading about food and spirituality (more or less the macrobiotic lifestyle), the Dr Phil The Ultimate Weight Solution. Somehow I really don't like Dr Phil that much anymore, he portrays hisself like the 'human psychology messiah' but it is all one puppetshow.. anyhow.. lots and lots of book about eating healthily.

I know I needed to sleep to make body rest. So I slept. I dreamt about this lovely lovely giant wonderful beautiful house we had. But I was the only sleeping on the ground floor and thieves could actually see me sleeping naked.. (why the hell is that all about??)
In my dream I tried to find myself a better room, or a better place to sleep, I even asked my sister to help move the bed farther from the window. She refused.

There were a lots of mirrors and staircases in his beautiful house, but also darkspot with freaky dolls resembling little midgets. In the end my bed still wasn't moved.

I woke up and my mission was; get this digestive system working! xp and drunk some green tea.

Oh by the very important way; today I am going to eat more intuitively, so not too much according a scheme (i guess, to prevent this nasty to full feeling). Has anybody of you read Allen Carrs No More Diet? Please let me finish my sentence, that book is GOOD. Like GOOD. Allen Carr makes sense. He explains to us, that Mother Nature gave us the most intelligent tool every designed and made, OUR OWN BODY, so we must trust it in order to develop a healthy and sensible relation with HEALTHY, NATURE PROVIDED FOOD.
In that order, we will have the body Nature had planned for us. I lend it from the library, but perhaps I am going to buy it too.
Nicely and witty written, no wooly talk, sharp and sensible!!

So guys, wish you a good day, let us fight together.

xx
Jen