

That should give you an idea : http://wp.me/pAhpO-5d
I just don't know about recovery anymore. It seems to make everything worse and it seems to make the pain get worse, too. I am so overwhelmed with being alive and all my psychologist can say is: you have depression and you need to take care of yourself. What about picking up an old hobby or a new (dah! I tried!). She seems so shallow in her questions and her "adive" (I don't even want to call it that).
I wished she would help me find the reasons and I wished she would help me find myself.
Is depression a result from Bulimia??
Or vice versa??
I am lost

ah.. today has been not good... I am still at work because I CAN't get anything done....
I fail fail fail
HERE is my full blog entry....
I hate these mood shifts from day to day or even within a day....
I wanna be recovered... yesterday...

Hey everyone!!
Please check out my blog today.
http://graceismyname.wordpress.com/2009/08/12/everyone-is-beautiful/
I'm very positive today after being extremely down last night, I just wanna share my mood and hope to inspire nd motivate you to go on or continue your very own journey to your true, beautiful self!
hugs

I wrote another blog.
I saw that many of us are concerened about dining out, esp. if it's with friends and family who don't know our secret.
I wrote a 10 point guideline that I find useful. It helped me just the other night and I will have to use it tonight.
http://graceismyname.wordpress.com/2009/08/07/dining-out/
Being social pretty much always means that there is food around, food is stress, especially for us...
Hope it helps.
Stay strong!

I have just written another blog entry that I would like to share. It is about the daily life of a bulimic. This is is in brief how my days usually look and feel like...
http://graceismyname.wordpress.com/2009/08/06/a-day-of-a-bulimic/
Feel free to comment on it or share your thoughts.

I know I can neither find the answer to my problems in the kitchen nor in the bathroom....
but now it don't matter anymore
http://graceismyname.wordpress.com/2009/08/05/self-doubts-and-destruction/
right... I lost myself again and I have no clue why...

My session at the psychiatrist was highly interesting... We hit so many important issues and went really deep back into my family history. The rest of the day I have been thinking about who I truely am. Where do I come from? What is my identity? How do I find it and how do I reveal my true self??
I think these are the main questions that will also lead to the answer of why I binge and purge and eventually get me close to how to stop it for good.
Those of you in recovery, do you experience this search for your identity as well? Is it important for your progresses?
I also found a really cool picture, unfortunately I cannot embedd it in here so see my blog if you'd like:
http://graceismyname.wordpress.com
Hope you are all well

I told my boss today. She was very understanding and I am very proud of me I did this.
She said, that she knows from her own experience (not EDS, but it does not really matter) that it will take a lot of weight off your shoulders if you start to open up and I bet most of us on here who have told someone feel the same.
Don't we?

Please click on the link and take part in the poll!!
http://graceismyname.wordpress.com/2009/08/02/survey/
thanks so much!!
Hope you are all working on yourselves!!!!
Stay strong
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