love yourself, love your life
so i've found this website and i am absolutely happy. actually, today is the end of the 4th day of no b/p for me.it's the longest i could do. i've been bulimic for 6,5 years. i'm 23 and i don't even remember what it's like to not to have to think about throwing up after every meal. i used to purge up to 7 times a day. i am beautiful but i was blindfolded by bulimia. i lost 2/3 of my one-day-beautiful hair. my skin is very dry. my face changed. and so on, and so on..
i am married to an amazing man and i look forward to joining him in his country. i live with my grandparents, my parents live in another country.
4 days ago i had a breakthrough. i suddenly started to cry, i could't stop. then i went online and told my mum about everything. she is the only person who knows about my bulimia, i kept it all inside of me for 6,5 years. 4 days ago i decided to finally say 'stop', for the sake of my future kids, my husband, my parents and everyone who loves me. i want open my eyes. i want MYSELF to be back to me. i love her.
i'm feeling extremely great and hyper. it's been 4 days of no horror. i started reading books and watching movies and walking. i eat 3 full meals a day and i enjoy cooking for myself. it's a great feeling when you eat something and you know how healthy it is for your body and how it will make you even more beautiful. and how it won't go down the toilet.
i love myself now. i do not have an urge to binge and purge.
my body and my mind belong to me.
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well done!
Im sure you feel clear headed and light and free,. its not an easy journey, but with courage and determination it can be done!
Ive read books by gennen roth, she is so down to earth, I suggest some of her books if you havent already.
Im 21 and have been bulimic/anorexic since 13, maybe even earlier,. I wasted all my teen years being underweight or overweight and everything in between, It only just hit me a couple of months ago that its time to choose between me and eating disorders. I truely felt like I wasnt going to live much longer if I continued the way I was
good luck on your journey,. and keep us updated! xx
u've inspired me to get back up and try again tmw
xox
a happy moment is never too far away
Thanks for your comment!
I feel like I didn't see so many things when I b/p. It's like you have no life and your life is bulimia which takes up all your time.
I made sort of a list of things I gain from being bulimic and of things I could have if I had got rid of it. And it helped as well.
I'm reading Cecelia Ahern's novels, they are sweet and so full of love to life, it's absolutely amazing and inspiring! I'll find Gennen Roth books for sure.
I really hope your journey is successul! Good luck to you too!! xxx
sera89, there is no tomorrow, start NOW. think about your future life and how wonderful it's going to be. imagine your family in 10 years from now, maybe kids or maybe you'll be a TV star?:) just picture it for the second. and there is no room for bulimia in your future.
Good luck!!!!! xxx
I've had that feeling before...a beginning of recovery high. It went away for me and now I'm fighting dirty with the urges. I hope your desire to get better doesn't fade even if the high does.
There's Hope,
Piper
A friend once told me that we give things more power and control over us when we keep them inside. There is such a release when you tell someone and they accept you, and shoulder your burden. You should be very proud of yourself!!