relapsing and afraid!! :(
After one whole month of normalized eating i have relapsed!! BIG TIME :(
I feel so worthless,fat, bloated, and confused. I have binged twice in the past four days on HUGE amounts of food. I am scared and hopeless. I have no idea what to do to get back on track. I fear if i don't starve myself i am gaurunteed to gain back all the weight i lost with healthy balanced eating... I don't know why this is happening to me or what i did to deserve this.
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breathe and relax it was two days.. you need to just forget about those days.. do not starve yourself because this will lead to more binging as we all know if you have to just eat smaller meals for a day or two but you have come so far and i envy you so much! the best thing to do is just try and forget i know its hard but just remember how far you have come! I'm here for you if you need me.
just remember that you did a whole month.... it's quite common to have these kind of set backs and sometimes if you do go ages, then the binges can be quite big. But it's okay. and just think of how well you have been doing. This doesn't have to mean you start again. It doesn't mean that you can't do another month. I know it can be hard to get back on track. But you need to just stop, reassess. Tell yourself that you've done really well and you do keep wanting to do well. And it will happen. You will get through this!
If you can do a month you can do several days! And if you can just take baby steps and keep breathing in and out, everything will sort itself out.
There is no shame in relapsing!! **Only if you don't pick yourself up and wage war with ed.
Take every moment as it comes. It's through the little battles that a war is won.
Stay strong! I'm proud of you-- I haven't gotten a month yet. =) Soon.
oxoxo
Hey Hun, it's okay. I just went through the same thing. Had about a month, then relapsed once, then after a couple days again, then again, and the next week after I b/p'ed everday, it was terrible. Yesterday was the breaking point I believe, as I broke the everyday multiple times per day b/p cycle this past week by just even having one day off from b/p.
I think why I went on the b/p bandwagon so terrible and quickly was because I was fihgting too hard for recovery, trying to restrict, and freaking out over my weight. Old habits die hard, thats for sure. SO just tell yourself that it is okay, and remember that those pesky thoughts may come back full force, but just realize that they are just thoughts, nothing else. Atleast you are asking for help/advice, as opposed to my problem, which was keeping it secretive. Much love
If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself. -- Barbara DeAngelis
Wow, a month is a very long time and you should be very proud of that accomplishment. Try not to focus on the bad and the past because no good can come from it. All you can do is look ahead and try again. You did not do anything to deserve this! If you ever need to talk, just message me! Good Luck!
"Remember how far you've come, not just how far you have left. You may not be where you want to be, but neither are you where you used to be."
its not about being perfect but embracing our flaws with grace and learning...you will go thru ups and downs and none of it makes you a worthless person-to the contrary. you have the courage to go on, to believe even when you have slipped up so terribly. i am proud of you.