typical bloating
good grief! i do not enjoy this bloating. ive been doing so well lately. but the bloating is really triggering me. its scaring me.
i feel so dumpy. when i look in the mirror i see a girl who cant fit in her clothes even though their loose. i see a girl who constitutes as "trailer trash". like a mom whos had 12 kids with sag and lumps all over.
today i had cereal for breakfast. a fancy wheat pocket stuffed with spinach and feta with a side salad for lunch at this swag vegan cafe. a vegan cupcake. a yogurt and then a sliced veggie dog in vegetarian baked beans for dinner.
i say i feel dumpy or fat but what i really mean is i feel guilty. i feel out of control. i want my hunger to go away completely so the shame i feel after enjoying a meal goes away. it all comes down to my self destruction and self deprivation. i like hurting myself. its not by choice its just how ive always coped with stress.
ive had people on here say "dont stress about weight gain" but thats what made me bulimic in the first place!!! recovering from anorexia i quickly gained weight because my metabolism was sluggish and then i just decided to throw up half of my meals and it escaladed into full on failure to say the least.
im still scared. alls i do is stare down at my stomach and poke it pitifully. ive also started comparing myself to others again which is so bad.
i tried to purge but stopped midway realizing this is not how i want to live my life. i cant do this forever. i just feel like i look like an amazon woman. you know? beefy, stout, wide, tall.
my boyfriend tells me im like a willow tree but god damn it do i feel like a giant red oak! does anyone know of any sure fire ways to cut this bloat?? i eat high fiber, i drink lots of water already. i dont drink alcohol and limit my caffeine to one cup a day.
please help....
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Walk walk walk! I find that after going for a good 1-2 hour walk I feel still bloaty that day but the next day - BAM! Feel great. Make it a routine, take you man with you!
ive been making a point to walk. my man is currently unable to walk (friend shot him in the leg with a bi bi gun...ergg boys)
so ive been going with a friend of mine who does not enjoy it seeing as i live in the hottest most humid state in the world.
oh well...yes i shall keep doing this though. i enjoy walks. clears my head.
First- I have to say congratulations on doing so well! Today is day7 for me, symptom free, and I feel justt as you do. Only it seems as though my body changes all throughout the day, as in I can be Terribly bloated after meals, improves slightly after a few hours, but goes right back to swelling up following the next time I eat. Frustrating to say the least! Especially when I haven't had a single unhealthy Anything since day1. But I do drink coffee, a lot of coffee. Does caffeine worsen the bloat?
I love the walking tip. I haven't been exercising at all [I got so used to sitting around when I had zero energy] so I cannot wait to start adding Some sort of physical activity to my days. Though for now, thankfully, the fact of knowing that this "bloat" is NOT permanent, really keeps me in tact when I feel overwhelmed. It will go away, and leave you with beautiful health. You aren't gaining weight! Don't let these side effects ruin your progress.. Keep in touch, and good luck to us both!
let me just say i am always bloated and continually try to look for an answer and new ways to reduce this ANNOYING problem.
one thing I have found out is that anything high in fiber causes your stomach to over work because it takes more for your stomach to break it down... meaning more bloating. you might want to eat fiber in smaller amounts or just every other day might help. it did for me!
eating fiber is great for a healthy lifestyle.. just keep it to smaller servings :)
let me know if this helps!
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ahhh i did not know that the fiber would make it worse. some assclowns told me fiber will help with the bloating. yikes!
i eat a ton of fiber so thank you. ill cut that down. what about veggies? are they okay? what should i eat in its place? i mean i have yogurt and rice chex (low fiber gluten free). i also have alright so im poor and i think thats ALL i have haha.
but when i finally do get money what are some good choices when i go to the grocery store??
Do eat fibre, don't take fibre supplements! Like, at breakfast have a fruit that has a peel (apple, nectarine, peach etc.), have beans or legumes or celery in your lunch, and lots of veggies at dinner. There's different types of fibres (you can google it) and some are like...hard to digest and some help with digestion. I find that the more natural you go the better the results so don't go for the metamucil and all that stuff just stick with real, nutritious foods!