First day trying to recover
first big step to recovering and never looking back
I have finally admit that i have a problem and i am seeking for help. This site makes me feel so much better as i can see that there are so many people here that are so strong, kind and supportive. I don't have any support as eating disorder is not openly talked about from where i am from. I have been taking laxatives everyday for 2 years and today, i am proud to say that i threw them all away and i am not turning back. the first day is really really hard. i tried eating normal again and try to think positive. the last 18 hours has been really really hard but this problem has changed me into a different person, being more shy and have low self esteem. i wasn't always like that and i want to change. it will be a long process but in time and with the support i am getting from this site. i can do it.
Mixed First day!
Right, well today was my first day of really making an effort to control my bulimia. This site is so inspiring, I don't think I would have started if I hadn't found it! Not so soon anyway. So I suppose the first positive is simply the decision to seriously start trying.
I went for a walk this morning, about 40 mins, with my mum, then came back and had the first normal, "proper" breakfast I've eaten in a very long time, and felt quite good about it. Between breakfast and lunch I had a piece of fruit as a snack, which also felt not too bad. More success with lunch, stopped when I thought I was full. I absolutely wanted to distract myself from purging and had to run some errands so I made sure I was out of the house for at least three hours. I think this was where my mistake was (see panicky status update!) I left it too long between eating and got too hungry, I thought I could control it, but even as I was eating my snack I was thinking "Oh no I can't have an orange because that won't be good to purge," and I was gone then!! It wasn't too bad as far as bingeing goes, but still, I purged anyway. This isn't good and I feel so exhausted and have a huge tummy ache! BUT I am going to eat dinner normally, and not purge afterwards.
That way, even though I b/p once, I will still have eaten three full meals and one snack, which is something of a miracle! I literally cannot remember the last time that happened voluntarily! Also its good as lately I have been b/p pretty much aaall day, so reaching 17:00 was actually not bad :)
Had a bit of an upsetting day- my ex boyfriend has reached the anger phase of our break up and is sending me icky txt msgs and I have to organise picking up all my stuff from our flat (he lives at the other end of the country!) So that's all sad and stressful :( We were together for four years. Also think I'm going into a bit of a low (bipolar wise), which is another reason to really GET ON TOP OF THE FOOD STUFF!!
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