Bulimia Help

Since I got caught shoplifting binge food and cutting my wrists Sunday night...almost a week ago, I have been on constant supervision. I know it is good that I can't engage in my destructive behaviors, but my urge is so intense and I don't know how to express myself or deal with my uncomfortable feelings. I will either go inpatient Monday to a nicer private ED treatment facility or Wednesday to the only hospital in my area that deals with ED's.... Chances are I'm going to the hospital, which isn't my first option, but it will certainly do. I just need A LOT OF HELP....but for some reason getting it from my parents in lock down style, make me feel like a prisoner in my home and body. I can't wait to be free from this disease, it doesn't deserve me and all of my attention. It doesn't deserve you either. We are worth the fight, and that's what it's going to be a FIGHT! My guns aren't quite ready but my heart is.