Bulimia Help

day 2 without throwing up so far. At the end of this summer or sometime into the fall, I'm going to get a white ink tattoo across my inner wrist. It's going to say "not an option" in cursive probably. That's what my mom used to tell me about me throwing up when it was really bad. She even wrote it on a sticky not and stuck it on the inside of the toilet lid with a happy face sticker. What a goof ball, but it was right there, staring me in the face whenever I lifted the lid. I think a more permanent reminder will be beneficial, and I will always see it throughout the day, not just when I am in the bathroom.

Did good yesterday, it's helping that mark wants to make over his body too. We are trying out the low-carb diet that worked so well for me a while ago and there is seriously nothing bad in the house. If I binged, it would probably be on peanut butter and I don't really want to do that because I eat it so much on a regular basis anyway. Feel good and I hope I can keep this up!

the first week of school is over and things are slowing down. i should be updating regularly again. I've been slipping lately and denying it to my roommate. Didn't realize how much it helped to post it in a weblog before.
Lately the trigger has been being left alone, which is kind of odd, because normally I am a loner and prefer to be by myself. Now, whenever mark leaves the apartment, I feel empty and completely alone. It's hard to make friends here in college, people had their little groups found on day 1, very different from what orientation was like.

I managed to go yesterday without throwing up and feel a little better already. Hopefully today will go just as well.

twelve days of no b/p-ing. This is awesome!

awesome awesome awesome. My roommate and I have decided that yesterday was our last day of eating junk food here and there and to start anew today and be good. Maybe it will be easier with another one trying to eat well in the house. We have gone grocery shopping together and there is no junk food whatsoever in the kitchen, unless you count tootsie pops.

I now have wifi in my apartment! I'm so happy to be connected again. Now I can resume watching True Blood, im so excited. I have been plenty occupied since I have moved in and so far, no throwing up. Even though we have eaten out a couple of times and don't have access to a gym, the thought has only briefly crossed my mind. I will start updating regularly again and will hopefully be on the way to healthy weight loss.

i am doing good so far, but there is no wifi in my apartment until wednesday. I will start updating then. I haven't given in to stress and im eating healthy!

I am doing better than i thought with this move. I have behaved in both my eating and throwing up. Though, when my mom took me clothes shopping the other day, i hated the way my body looked so much, i wanted to rip at it with my bare hands. It did help me to keep on a good eating streak, but it was still nerve wracking. I am moving in to my apartment today! I am so excited, only 2 hours to go!

acid reflux is getting much better, so ignore my previous question. Hopefully it will be gone pretty soon.
Im leaving the nest tomorrow! Driving down to get all set up and then be ready to move into my apartment by monday. Hopefully there will be minimal stress, but, as a lifelong military child, i know that there is always stress present in a move. Im going to try my best to behave myself.